Dreams

What are we to do with our dreams? With those precious, difficult to utter hopes of our heart? Those things we think about in the rare moments of silence in our lives. In the car… as we are doing the dishes… when the world is still and we have a moment to dream for a while. We have dreams of the way we would like to see our lives change. Dreams of love, of a growing family, of impact, of carving our names into the tiny corner of our world. We also have dreams of the way we hope our…

Secret Sorrow

Of all sorrow, secret sorrow has to be the heaviest. Grief that is hidden; wounds that are wept over in darkness. Sorrows that ebb from events that cannot be shared. It may be crushed dreams that are too precious to lay open before the world, or hidden hopes that have been snuffed out. It may be a betrayal that has left you too raw to even whisper the word “help.” Though these situations seem unique to us, the truth is we all have wounds we weep over in darkness. Wounds too fresh, too personal, too near our hearts. And these…

Sideline Suffering

May I say that one of the most difficult things to do is to watch someone you love suffer. Whether the watching occurs inches away or hundreds of miles away, to know that someone you love is grappling with pain, whether emotional or physical, and to lack the power to stop it is one of the greatest torments. It stirs up a rebellion within you. You can feel the energy course through your body. Your hands tingle with the desire to do something – anything, to act, to defend, to rescue, and yet at times, there is simply nothing that…

Led to Hope

It is a popular belief that a soul in mourning should be at liberty, free to express itself, free to explore thoughts, emotions and desires without restraint. In a “you-do-you” world, it seems the only rule placed on those grieving is “thou shall not have rules.” Cry. Scream. Kick. Hide. Rage. Blame. Avoid. Vent. Take the journey of grief and let the waves of sorrow toss your soul wherever it will. There is no wrong way to grieve. Which Direction? And while a heart throbbing with compassion longs to agree, I cannot keep silent. I am compelled to say, “False!”…

Songs in the Night

Heartaches hurt more at night. Everyone from eight years old to eighty years old knows this. Fears are more terrifying, dread more suffocating when darkness falls. There is an isolation that comes in the night as one by one our friends and family drift to sleep, the phone goes silent, the house grows still and we are left alone with our thoughts. We can feel abandoned. Disarmed. Vulnerable. Night can also bring irrationality. Fatigue wraps its fingers around our minds, slipping past our mental barriers and leading us easily into captivity. We drift into thoughts we wouldn’t allow ourselves to…